LORD, I wait for you;
you will answer (Ps 38:15)….
As a child, waiting for Christmas to come was the worst. I had so much built up excitement I couldn’t hardly stand the wait. My mom was a master gift giver too. She’d always come up with some creative way to give us the last and final present. Which was always the crescendo of Christmas at our home. She’d hand us some envelope that would lead us to a brand new Nintendo 64. Then we would burst with excitement over the thought of more and more Super Mario Kart in our lives.
In preparation for Christmas, sometimes, I’d do a little peeking around the house, seeing if maybe, just maybe, I’d happen to “accidentally” grab a glimpse of something that would soon find its way under the tree. One year I “accidentally” placed my gaze upon some rollerblades in the storage room.
Truth be told, I was extremely disappointed with myself because I did not wait for the surprise. The gift lacked the joy it was meant to have, because I couldn’t wait for its timely reception
There is a joy that awaits us if we are willing to wait for the giver to hand us His blessing. The human heart wrestles with contentment, because its appetite hungers for gifts pursued out of an unhealthy need; not blessings found in the fulfillment of joy from the hand of their creator.
We cannot receive from God what we are not willing to wait patiently for. We also cannot become who God wants us to be if we are not willing to sit with Him in a place of rest- a spacious place away from wanting. The answer of God comes in the patience of waiting, not in the action of anxiety.
The answer of God comes in the patience of waiting, not in the action of anxiety.
Lord, I am impatient and demanding at times. I make plans. I am reminded of my daily need for your grace, because of how my heart wants to gather its own treasures. Father, forgive me. Make me more like you Jesus. I long to sit with you in a spacious place away from wanting. I have everything I need in you. Thank you, in Jesus name, Amen.