And without faith it is impossible to please God….(Heb 11:6).
When I was a child we would often visit the Lake of the Ozarks, grandpa would bring his boat and we’d have all sorts of fun doing water sports together. Every single time I would wade in the water I had this terrible, unfounded fear that fish were going to bite my feet. Apparently I thought my feet resembled those slimy worms the bluegill loved to bite at when we would go fishing.
My fear kept me from being able to fully enjoy the moment. My fear also made me constantly kick my feet underwater. In my mind, kicking my feet would keep those suckers away and if they tried to get too close I would ninja kick them in the mouth if they went grabbing for my toes. Had someone been able to see underwater I would have looked absolutely ridiculous. Although, ontologically I knew that those silly fish couldn’t bite my feet off I had allowed a lie to pit deep into my heart. This lie caused me to act in ways that were out of character and, quite frankly, outside the frame of reality.
I have also let other lies pit deeply into my heart. Lies that steal my confidence in God. Lies that try to make me believe God is not faithful.
I have lived most of my life knowing the plan. For the first time in my life I feel as though God has stripped me of all my sensibilities and plans. He is thrusting me into deep waters. I feel like Peter out on the water saying, but Lord, WHAT IF I drown!
Oh you of little faith, why did you doubt?
Because I have often pressed into my own capabilities. I have often felt confident in myself to make things happen. Now God is forcing me into a place of deep trust. I do not like it here, but I know God is faithful.
Could it be that we never experience the fullness of who God is, because we never actually practice deep, abiding faith? Whenever we insert human wisdom into our situations we strip away the power of God. Not because God lacks the power, but we lack perseverance. Whenever we insert our own ideas, plans and purposes we run far away from the miracles of God.
When we practice faith we must now wait. We must wade in the water with God, in stillness, not kicking our feet out of fear or a lack of trust. It’s there, in the deep waters that He promises to never leave us nor forsake us. Let God fight for you, you need only be still.
Lord, I’m not good at this. You’re taking me to a place of deep waters. You’re stripping me of my sensibilities. This is a good place for me to be. Thank you for taking me here. Forgive me for doubting you. I have such weak faith. I want to lay down my fears and take up faith in you, in Jesus name! Amen!