A Fake Smile to Hide a Ruined Life

Why highlight your eyes with makeup?
You adorn yourself in vain….(Je 4:30).

“Heather, you’re ugly, worthless, and will never amount to anything.”

This was the message I repeated to myself time and time again as a teenager. Outwardly I would fake a smile and do my best to have an attractive outward appearance, yet inwardly I constantly felt like my life was a heap of ruins. I was too afraid to share with anyone about the devastation of what lied beneath the forced smile, makeup, and styled hair.

I know there are many others out there, just like I was, who feel destroyed inside. You feel as if your life is in ruins, yet try to cover it up with a glamorous, attractive life, hoping no one will see the devastation of your own heart.


We cannot run from our own devastation. Eventually, it leaks its way out to reek havoc in our lives. If we cannot maintain long-term relationships, ever find joy, or satisfaction in life I would suggest it is because we are not whole persons. We are persons living among a heap of ruins; the wreckage of our own hearts. We keep pursuing something, anything to give us freedom from our personal devastation, but end up woefully short with each attempt.

This is why Jesus says, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”-(John 10:10)

Jesus is the repairer of broken walls. He is the life giver and the devastation breaker. He fills the empty soul with joy. He makes all things new in the heart that feels as though life will never get better. It is His love that goes beyond the surface to heal the innermost parts of our war-torn souls.

“Behold, I am making all things new.” – (Rev. 21:5)

That includes you if you would be willing to trust Him today. Jesus says, “Come to me all who are weary and heavy burdened, for I will give you rest”…(Matt 11:28)

Coming to Jesus is really quite simply saying, “I’m done, you take over, I need your grace, I turn from my way of life to embrace your resurrected life.”

When the heart turns to the joy giver, it is completely healed and restored- set on a path towards full and complete redemption. There is no more emptiness in the heart because it is filled with the love of God, in Jesus name.

Lord, I know who I used to be. A young girl without hope, joy or purpose. Yet, you have filled my heart to overflowing. Your love has changed everything about me. I am whole. I am deeply loved and am being made new. For those that feel empty, destroyed and without hope, I pray they would turn to you, the restorer and life-giver, in Jesus name, Amen!

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