Me: The Treasure of My Heart

Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth…For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also…. (Mt 6:19, 21).

Yesterday, I was bustling about through the airport with a short layover in Atlanta where I grabbed a quick breakfast at Chipotle. However, the folks at my beloved Chipotle forget to provide me with eating utensils. Knowing that I could not dine on my Chipotle breakfast without an eating utensil sent me scurrying quickly about the terminal. I only had a few minutes before my flight was boarding, and I was hungry. I didn’t want to go India style and dive into my veggie bowl with my hands, so I now had one mission- find a fork.

Unfortunately, my mission sent me into a place of anxiety, worry, and hurriedness. I have noticed when I get to those places the person I treasure the most is myself. It’s in those times that I perpetuate my own desires, placing them as more important than anyone else’s.

Hurriedness is an issue of mine. I dart about from one thing to the next and sometimes have a hard time being fully present in the moment as I start to treasure my own wants and desires. This shuts me off from community and caring for people because in my mind what starts to take precedence is me. I’ll become overwhelmed with my own personal list of things that “I” want to do.

I think when Jesus says, do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, He’s not just referring to material possessions, because what have found in my own heart, what I treasure the most is not things, but myself.

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In my search to find a fork to eat my Chipotle, I came across another restaurant that had plastic forks sitting in a cup on the counter. I thought to myself, “jackpot!” I knew I should have asked the gentleman at the counter, but since I was in a hurry and was afraid that he might say no I just went ahead and grabbed for one of the forks. On my way out he said to me, “you’re welcome.” Immediately, I was hit with conviction. It may seem like a trivial thing, a fork, but I knew what it really revealed was my heart. My heart that cared about what was best for me, not the business owner.

Maybe you’ve lived there too, in the places of anxiety, where you feel the tension in your heart to fix things, so you shove yourself through people to get what you want.

Jesus never found Himself in such a place. Not once do we ever read that Jesus was in a hurry. The pressures of getting ahead, doing more, being more, and having more never drove Jesus. What drove Him was His Father’s peace. Through this peace, Jesus was able to care well for people, because His mind was not centered on His own agenda.

If we dwell on our Father’s peace our hearts stay in a place of tranquility. If we allow ourselves to enter into a state of worry, we’ll be led by anxiety which is sure to keep us from loving people well for God’s great glory.

Lord, I long to be a Kingdom worker for you, yet there is still so much work to be done in my own heart. There’s still a whole lot of Heather in there, but I long for my heart to be just like Jesus. Lord, shine light into my heart where I am the most selfish and please, by your loving grace, change me, in Jesus name, Amen.

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