“Go,” he told him, “wash in the Pool of Siloam” (this word means “Sent”). So the man went and washed, and came home seeing….. (John 9:7).
Sometimes, the only thing we can see is our pain or the person who hurt us. When our vision is locked on our pain, our purpose lays locked behind it. Hidden behind bars of our own unwillingness to release control of our lives to the Father of truth. Our vision remains stuck in the past, instead of seeing with fresh eyes towards a bright future.
Sometimes Jesus is asking us to take His hand, to be led by His mercy and be given new eyes to see His glory, but we’re so caught up in our pain that we cannot see the hand of a loving Father in the midst of strife and disappointment. When the soul is tired, the eyes grow weak, the shoulders slouch and the heart feels heavy. Maybe you’ve been there too, where everything inside of you feels like a heavy burden to carry. Each step that you take your heart is filled with greater discontentment. We must remember that each step in our journey is a step that has the potential to fill our hearts with greater love. The problem is not in our journey but in our ability to see our journey as God’s loving-kindness to us.
Jesus has an encounter with a man born blind in John 9, He simply tells Him to “go” and wash in the Pool of Siloam. I do not think it’s a coincidence that the name of the pool means, “sent.” Jesus was sending this man out of His darkness. He was sending Him to a place where He could see with fresh eyes for the first time. All this man had to do was get up and walk towards His freedom.
It is easy to stay stuck in the places of darkness. The places we’ve always known. It’s hard to step out in faith when our fears and insecurities start to press in on us. I am certain there have been many times in my life when Jesus beckoned me to go and wash in the pool of Siloam, but I stayed wallowing in the mud instead. I could list a few here, but the list would get quite long.
Jesus is always sending us somewhere that leads us towards greater freedom. We should never be stagnant in our faith. If we are, we can be certain that our hand is clinging to what we’ve always known. This past week, I was tempted to stay stuck in a place of my own fears, but my husband and grandmother challenged me to go out and trust God instead.
Yesterday, I took steps towards overcoming my fears. Fears about money. Fears about failure. Fears about caring what others thought of me. Many of us, are living in spiritual blindness because we are clinging to spiritual darkness All of us have certain comforts we’ve clung to nearly all of our lives. The deeper we go with Jesus the more we’ll be thrust into the places where we must trust Him to bring victory over what we have feared the most. I think we experience God most, not when we are leading for Him, but when we are walking out of spiritual darkness and into the place of freedom. The kind of spiritual fruit that is not seen by others except our Heavenly Father.
Lord, today I want to be led by your hand and walk towards my freedom in you. I want to have such deep trust that I know nothing in my heart except your great love for me. Jesus, may the fruit of my life be what is produced in me, not when I am seen by others, but when I am trusting you for my daily bread. Take me to the pool of Siloam today, for I want to be free from my fears and sent out towards my freedom, in Jesus name, Amen.