“Praise be to the LORD, who this day has not left you without a guardian-redeemer…. (Ruth 4:14).
We cannot look to people, jobs or opportunities to fulfill the role that only God can fill. I am and have been in a season of waiting. I am waiting for God’s redemption in many areas of my life. However, I’m seeing now that redemption isn’t found in the changing of our circumstances to get what we want, but in our perspective to see that our greatest gift of redemption is found in receiving God’s love for us.
I’ll be honest, I have a checklist of what God’s redemption is supposed to look like in my life. God doesn’t care much for my checklist. He’s in the business of redeeming our broken situations, but He never sides with the popular opinion. He is always working things together for our good, but no amount of manipulation can convince God to side with our unhealthy petitions of Him.
Trusting God means full submission to His will. Sometimes I think we believe we’re following God’s will because we’re simply praying along the way. However, I think the majority of the time the destination we get to was the one we had always hoped for all along and we just call it “God’s will,” because its what we wanted to begin with. I really think that many Christians are actually outside of God’s will because they don’t realize that finding God’s will is not some treasure map to follow, but a person to trust. Finding God’s will is about resting in stillness. It’s about becoming a new person. It’s about allowing God to reshape and reform your heart, not have your heart full of the things you’ve always dreamed of.
I am watching God bring things into my life that feel painful and, honestly, make me want to throw up a fist and say, “but it’s not fair! What did I do to deserve this?!?” Until we let go of who we think we should become we can never fully embrace the person God is shaping us into. I have found that more often than not the heart that actually needs changing is not all the other people in my life, but my own. Until we start to do some honest reflection on our own hearts we’ll always believe the issue is not in is, but someone else.
Lord, I trust you. Its just sometimes I wrongfully think I know better. Sometimes I think that my idea is yours and that is wrong of me. Forgive me for my lack of trust and maturity. I want to be made more like you, I am just not very patient. I want things changed now and in my way, but you don’t work on my timeline. I submit to your will, in Jesus name, Amen.