A Cry of Anguish

“I cry aloud to the LORD; I lift up my voice to the LORD for mercy.”- Psalm 142:1

I remember one of my first experiences in Israel back in 2010. We were all huddled in the cave of Adullam. The very place where David found himself a few thousand years earlier while fleeing for his life. There, alone in the cave with no one to come alongside him, David cried out to God and God brought a rough and tumble group of about 400 men to come to David’s side.
I remember John, our director, letting out a bellowing scream of agony there in the cave that day as he cried out the Hebrew word (za’ak) David would have used. He said this word is used when you’re in deep agony. It’s a word you use when you have nothing left and need God to show up and intervene.
As John cried out it felt as if the cave walls began to shake. You could see David, there in the cave, crying out in a similar manner. He was desperate and God heard his cry. I’ve been in that place where I need God to show up. Where my heart feels in deep agony and I wonder if God is hearing my cry.
Sometimes my heart still feels like it is tumbling in anguish. Although I am seeing the hand of God working in my life I also see another hand at work. I am having a hard time letting go of the injustice I see dispersed upon my life from the Father of lies. I’m sure David felt a similar way when He dealt with the deep anguish and injustice in his life of having his own son try to overthrow his kingdom. I’m sure Joseph, also, dealt with those feeling of anguish as he sat alone in a prison cell accused of a crime he didn’t commit, betrayed by his own brothers and sold into slavery.
One might say that God was unfair to both of these men. However, what God did was use the injustice inflicted upon them as preparation in their lives for the next step He had for them. No season, pain or circumstance in our lives is ever wasted. God is always preparing us for something new, something glorious, if we would be willing to trust in His redemption and timing.
So today friend, let’s go to the cave of Adullam together and cry out. There, in our desolation, the Lord meets us. He longs to meet our needs and fill our hearts with His love.
Lord, I trust you. I cry out to you. I need you. Forgive me for not believing in your greatness, but allowing my circumstances to steal my joy. Lord, grow my heart. I want to be more like you, in Jesus name, Amen.

2 thoughts on “A Cry of Anguish

  1. This is so good. I think i struggle with the waiting and knowing who He is part, letting circumstances steal my joy. I saw this morning and on the drive to work i yelled it out. I think its interesting when you stop asking for god for deliverance and you realize all your asking for is presence. Like your always thirsty and you’ve always been asking for soda, but you give up on soda and start asking for water because you realize that’s all you need and ever wanted…. anyway long story to say, Thanks for posting!


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