LORD, I know that people’s lives are not their own; it is not for them to direct their steps…..(Jeremiah 10:23).
I’m walking this journey with Jesus right now in my life that I don’t really care for. It’s one of those journeys where the steps keep diverting from the path I want them to walk on. I am learning, as I process through what God is doing in my heart the best place I can be is not in want but waiting. After all, He is the one who raises up. He is the one who calls forth ordinary people like you and me to do great works for His kingdom.
Jesus and I are walking a journey. A journey where He’s making me sit still. A journey where He keeps putting me in places of rest. Places where things keep happening outside of my control that keep me from walking the path I want to be on. I do not always understand Jesus in these moments, but I trust Him.
Maybe you’ve been there too or maybe you’re there now, in the place where you just don’t get what Jesus is doing. You see, there’s a door that’s opened for me, but wisdom tells me not to walk through it. Wisdom tells me to take a step back and sit in the waiting. Wisdom tells me that walking God’s path sometimes means that I must apply wisdom to my situations that “feel” like they must be God’s will. My feelings want to run through the door, but I know that it will only end in disappointment. I can see the result before the end because I know deep down that I would not be applying wisdom.
As we shut the doors that the world opens, we learn that waiting with God is the place where our hearts needed to be. It’s the place where He takes our foolishness and slowly molds us into people of faith. People of faith whose hearts are tethered not towards their own demands or wills, but towards the perfect will of a loving Father.
Lord, you are changing me, but this changing process is not fun. I don’t like it. I want to be in control. I want things to be different. I don’t want to lay down my desires to trust you, but I know that I must, so with hands and a heart open to you, I receive your will. Jesus, be my greatest joy and delight. I surrender all that I have to you. In you, I trust, Amen.