“Every word of God is flawless;
he is a shield to those who take refuge in him….. (Proverbs 30:5).
For many years I worshipped a false god. It was a false god of doubt and fear. I would take it with me everywhere. This false god of fear and doubt made me constantly question God, doubt His goodness and feel like I had to be in control. It led me down paths I’d rather not recall and caused me to make decisions that have proved to be very painful.
The past year of my life, I was brought to a crossroads. There at the crossroads, God challenged me, “Heather, will you follow me now, or will you continue to serve your worthless idols?” I knew something in me had to change. Something desperately needed to grow, so in order for it to grow, God had to allow for crushing circumstances to enter my life. Circumstances that in many ways crippled me. Everywhere I turned God would throw up something else until I felt powerless. Powerless in my own strength. I knew what I needed what the power of God. Our idols give us a false sense of strength and security, but once they are brought before the throne room of God they cannot stand up against His might.
I am now finally learning how to practice faith. How to live without fear. How to love well. How to believe God for who He is; mighty, trustworthy, powerful and good. For the first time, what is coming out of my mouth is actually lining up with the peace I sense in my Spirit. It’s a belief that says, “God is bigger than that. God will redeem, restore and heal all in my life that the enemy tried to steal, kill and destroy.”
It was a slow journey, but that is what sanctification is. It is the process of being made new. We must understand that no growth comes overnight. It comes through many nights of holding fast to the Lord Jesus, as He changes us from the inside out.
Lord, I believe. I really do. I know that you hold me. You will take care of me. No matter what life brings me, I have you. Therefore, I have everything I need. I have the joy of Christ. I am a child of God. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for demolishing strongholds in my life. Thank you for making me a new woman, in Jesus name, Amen.