With a loud cry, Jesus breathed his last…. (Mark 15:37).
There have been many times in my life when I have cried out to the Lord. In times of desperation, pain, and need. I have cried out to him in anger, sometimes self-centered, other times righteous. I have come, at many times, to the end of myself, to get to the beginning with God. In order to find my freedom, I must continue to “breathe my last.”
As I breathe my last breath and die before Him at the altar of daily sacrifice His love breathes new life in me. I am no longer led by fear, worry, anger or anxiety. Truly, He takes all my burdens and lifts them with His love.
Too many people are shouting at God, but not breathing their last breath. They refuse to give up control, bitterness, and anger. They never die to their pain or admit their brokenness. Therefore, they never experience God’s resurrection power over their life.
I have been walking a journey of dying. It has been a deeply painful journey, but quite frankly, it was a long overdue journey. Some of us see our pain as punishment when truly our pain is meant to play a part in our story that becomes part of our purpose. Out of it, God brings new life, hope, and joy into our lives, so that when others see us they can say, “They live differently, something in their heart has radically changed.” Change only comes as we die.
The longer we avoid pain the longer we’ll continue on as our own selves, untransformed by the love of Christ. I am learning that as I embrace my pain, I find others who are walking similar journies that need the same kind of encouragement I am finding for my life.
As I have been submitting to the Father I am seeing His hand of blessing on my life. Truly though, the greatest blessing I am finding is not in a job, money or prestige, but in His grace for me. It’s His love dancing over me that I have never experienced before. A peace in my heart that encompasses my entire being. I do not have all I’ve ever dreamed, but I have grace for my life. I have the love of God that lifts me up and reminds me that I am a child of God, dearly loved by my Father who is redeeming, restoring and making all things new in my life, for His glory and my betterment, in Jesus. name.
Abba, daddy, you are the world’s greatest joy. I believe it. I have everything I could ever need in you. I have peace in my heart. You are taking me deep places in my heart, to redeem, restore and renew my life. Truly, you are a faithful, loving God. Thank you for redeeming my life. Thank you for setting me free by your love. Today I will stand under the shower of your grace so that I might be washed in your love, I pray, in Jesus name, Amen.