in the morning I lay my requests before you
and wait expectantly….(Psalm 5:3).
There have been seasons in life when I have seen my walk with God as drudgery. As if it was only me surviving through one painful experience to the next. Because of my limited vision, I lacked the desire to see the goodness of God in the midst of circumstances I did not care for or understand.
The problem is not with my circumstances. Truly, it is with my heart. I have grossly misunderstood something about God if I see Him as only someone who seeks to cause me suffering. Do we suffer? Yes, we do, but that is not the whole picture. It is not all God has for us. It is true that God allows suffering into our lives. It is also true that He does it for redemptive purposes. To accomplish something bigger in our lives that we would never experience apart from it.
I’ll be honest. This is a tough one for me. To see the goodness of God in life right now and to praise Him for what He’s doing. Too often I see my circumstances as drudgery. I have allowed my own heart to see Him as someone who just wants me to suffer. Oh Lord, forgive me for my own unrighteous attitude!
I am learning what it means to praise, rejoice and be glad in all circumstances. Whether I am well fed or hungry, am in plenty or in want. I can’t say I’m all the way there, but I am asking God to give me a perspective centered on life-giving joy. I long to parade his joy to the world, so that they might see that God is eternally and forever faithful. His works are truly wonderful and I long for my heart to sing those praises in every circumstance.
Is God blessing my life? Yes, He is and there is something in that to praise Him for. I see the hand of God working for me on my behalf. His crushing has come so that His new wine might be poured out into my heart and through my life.
Lord, you are good. Thank you for your hand of blessing on my life. Thank you for how you have taken care of me. Thank you for what you’re doing in my life. You are faithful. You are love, life, and peace. Abba, daddy, you are my joy. Let your joy be written upon my heart today, so that the world might read of your love when they see me, in Jesus name, Amen.