This is why “it was credited to him as righteousness… (Romans 4:22).
I have often wondered why Abraham seemed so resolute in his decision to sacrifice his son Isaac. I think I finally get it now. Mostly because I feel like God has been taking me through my own Abrahamic season. A season where I took the reigns of control for far too long, tried to push through with my own ideas and feelings to make things happen in my life.
Abraham did that too. He became impatient, so he slept with his maidservant, hoping the child of God’s promise would come that way. Obviously, this wasn’t Gods action making things happen, it was Abraham’s. I am learning that when God acts on our behalf, we don’t need to be part of the equation in pushing things forward. We need only be still, wait, listen, watch and pray.
I feel like God is taking me on this journey up Mt. Moriah, where He’s saying to me, “Heather, won’t you trust me? Don’t you believe that I am who I say I am?” I think Abraham was so convinced in his mind to now do what God said because he blew it big time. Through his failure, he finally understood that the best place he could be in was fully submitted to God’s will. I feel like that’s where I’m at. I’m done trying to make things happen in my life and push my agenda forward.
I am learning through my failures that God is trustworthy. I don’t want to go back there. To the places of control and fear. I want to live with reckless abandon to the Lordship of Christ, even when I don’t understand why, when or how.
Lord, I want to be resolute in my decisions to follow you to places that require me to trust you deeply. I want to live as a woman who is fully alive in your love. Jesus, be my greatest joy. Let my heart be fully satisfied with who you are for me. Abba, daddy, I trust you. Come through for me as you did for Abraham, in Jesus name, Amen.