I Want to Say that Jesus is Enough, But I’m Not Quite There Yet

…you may now dismiss your servant in peace.  For my eyes have seen your salvation…(Luke 2:29-30)

Gods unending peace comes to those who have determined that their greatest joy is found in Christ alone. When our hearts feel anxious, discontent, tired and worn, it’s because we have forgotten our first love. We may have started to find false worth in our performance or have sought to find meaning in other relationships, outside of our fellowship with the Lord Jesus.
Sometimes my life looks a little something like this. I get worried about money, so I start to come up with ways to get more of it. I get bored, so my mind wanders towards something different, a better life (in my own mind) instead of embracing with joy the place that I am in. I feel insecure and worried, so I fill my heart and mind with negative thoughts and have a difficult time being fully present. I get consumed with exercise and sports, so I neglect to care for some of the most important relationships in my life.
I wish that I could say, “I have salvation, therefore, I have enough.” I”m just not there yet. I want to be though. The struggle of following Jesus is learning how to let go, and embrace our present seasons with joy. It’s learning how to lay down our own issues with control to sit still in His presence. That is where peace and contentment are found, in the lap of our Father’s love for us.
You see, Simeon’s greatest joy was in simply seeing the Christ child. It was the presence of Jesus that he was overwhelmed by. Thus, it is the presence of our Lord that our hearts need most, but sadly this is often the most neglected area in our lives because we do not seek His presence. We seek a spiritual snack and not a fulfilling meal. We wait for God, but only long enough to get what we need from Him, instead of simply seeking to be fully present before Him.
For those who are willing to empty their hands, the Father has joy for them that He longs to place in their heart. That we might taste and see that He is so very good for us. We should thank God that we do not always get what we want. Sometimes our hearts and minds need to be starved of our own wisdom so that God can strip us of our self-sufficiency and get us to a place of His unending joy.
Lord, I am a work in progress. I’m a control freak. I worry about things that are of little or no value. Forgive me for allowing them to steal my heart and mind away and carry it into unhealthy places. Lord, I surrender. Please forgive me for my idols. I don’t want them. I want you, in Jesus name, Amen.

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