Go, gather together all the Jews who are in Susa, and fast for me….(Esther 4:16).
Before Esther stood before the King, she prostrated herself before God. We must remember that our best efforts are not found standing tall, but in bowing low. In our humility God meets us and fills us with HIs power, enabling us now to go forward, not in self-reliance, but in faith.
Esther was queen, but this wasn’t her identity nor her purpose. Esther was a child of God whose life was submitted to God. Truly, this is where her purpose is found and this is where her actions reveal what she understands about her identity. She goes and fasts before the Lord. You see, fasting releases us from control. It empties us of our self-reliance. At the heart of fasting is an attitude that cries out, “Lord, I need you!”
The best kind of leader sacrifices themselves, not for praise and adoration, but for the blessing of someone else. Esther put her life on the line, not to be adorned, but to simply be a servant. She emptied herself so that God could fill her. She didn’t trust I her own abilities or her beauty, she trusted in what God and only God could do.
I have found myself, in this present season being tempted to trust in my own ability. Believing that somehow my personal resume and giftings will accomplish for me what I hope. However, I am learning that standing tall in my own wisdom is really foolishness, for truly, God exalts the lowly and humble. He calls and raises up. He doesn’t need our help.
The best kind of me is a humble, submissive servant. A servant who has given up her rights to be in control. A servant who lives not for the praise of man, but for the purposes of God, even if that means it costs me something. We cannot, nor will we ever see the power of God on display in our lives if we keep stealing the stage. He’ll shine somewhere else. He’s waiting for us to get low, so by His grace, He can fill us with His power done only through our humility.
Lord, I want to be like Esther. I want to be bold and courageous. I want to live for you. Abba, daddy, I am prideful and self-reliant, but I want to live in reckless abandon to your love. I trust not in myself but in your love. For I know that you are a good, loving and faithful God, in Jesus name, Amen.