When the king heard the words of the Book of the Law, he tore his robes… (2 Kings 22:11).
Sin is a terrible thing to treasure. Yet, we store it up in our hearts for years and decades, pulling on its reserves to comfort our anxious, worried minds. It is like a sickness to our souls that we just cannot seem to shake. It pervades our hearts because we have quite simply allowed it to. We’re quick to pull on our reserves because we have not allowed the Lord Jesus to clean us out and fill us with a new heart and mind set on His righteousness.
As Josiah heard the words of Scripture he was undone. He became overwhelmed by the thought of how far Israel had fallen from God and he tore his clothes and wept in repentance.
I wonder how many of us, myself included are so undone by our sin that we would weep in repentance before the Lord over it. I find, more often than not, what springs up out of my heart is not repentance, but a mixture of pride, and justification over my sin.
Just this past weekend, I was confessing sin to some dear friends who I asked to pray for me. Initially, my heart was humble and contrite, but soon after I began to justify my sin and try to play it off in my own mind as not all that bad. Once again, pulling on my reserves trying to protect my own image before others, instead of continuing to go before the Lord in true, genuine humility.
Until we become like Josiah, we cannot grow into the new creation God is trying to shape in us. He doesn’t force new growth upon His. He simply asks us to join Him in the process. This means we must empty ourselves of our own pride so that we can be filled with things like; humility, love, and grace. It is an ongoing process.
May we approach the throne of grace knowing that there is mercy for sinners like us, but may we never be ok with staying there in our sin. Let us become more like Jesus, admitting that we don’t have it all together and we are in need of His daily grace.
Lord, forgive me for my lack of humility. Sometimes I just want to hide, because I care about the opinions of others. Lord, please forgive me for my sins, my idols, and my false comforts. I want to be just like you. Continue to mold and shape me into your image, I pray, in Jesus name, Amen.