do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes….(Psalm 37:7).
I’ll just come right out and say it, I’m not good at waiting. In fact, I’m terrible at it. Waiting to me often feels like a slow death, a constant prison and a weight to bear. Yet, I am learning, very slowly and with much resistance that waiting is part of the journey. It is not the next step I need to be living for but this present moment that God has blessed me with for today. I really want to live in the next step. It’s so hard for me to release what I want to the Lord to live in the joy of His grace as I wait.
I have been told now by multiple veteran basketball officials, “Heather, you need to slow down your game. The game will wait for you, don’t rush through your calls, slow down.” Honestly, this is a hard one for me to understand because I realize that for most of my life I’ve rushed quickly from one thing to the next. I don’t stay well in moments, because, as a task-oriented person I’m always thinking of the next thing that needs to be done instead of living in the richness of the moment.
It takes true discipline for me to slow down my game as I officiate. I have to say to myself, “Heather, take your time and be patient.” Can I be really honest? I know God is saying the same thing to me as I seek Him in what I’m desiring for my life, but gosh, that one is a hard pill for me to swallow.
Many of us are waiting for God to do something in our lives. Yet, God has never forsaken His children, and He still sits on the throne even in the midst of our waiting. I know I feel the tension nearly every day to rise up and do something about it, but God says, “Heather, let me handle this.”
Yes, Lord, just as I’ve been coached to slow down my officiating, I’m going to choose today to rest in your promises. To live in this present moment, knowing that it is not a wasted season, but one with great purpose as I seek your face.
Lord, I release control of my life to you. Have your way. I’ll follow you wherever you lead me. Father, I trust you. I believe your timing is good. I submit myself to it. Today I’ll choose to slow down so I can see you, your grace and opportunities to share your love. Use me today, I pray, in Jesus name, Amen.