Anyone who loves their brother and sister lives in the light…. (1 John 2:10).
You know what’s easy? Loving people who love me back and have shown it by their actions. You know what’s hard for me? Loving people who haven’t given me what I’ve wanted or who haven’t prescribed the value to my life that I think I deserve. All of this, of course, is rooted in my own immaturity.
No person is ever the problem. The problem is that we often see ourselves as the center of the universe. Our needs, wants, and desires tend to be more important than anything else. At least, that’s what I see sometimes in my own heart.
The Scripture reminds us that if we love one another than we live in the light. When I take my eyes off of love and start seeing other people as roadblocks to getting me where I want to go I quickly run into the darkness, only to find what meets me there is my own unsanctified soul. She tells me how unfair life is and how wrong people are for treating me the way they do. She reminds me of all the pride that’s in other peoples hearts, but she does very little to help me see my own.
Wow, I am very prideful. I spend far too much time stumbling about in the darkness, exhausting my mental energies as I think about all the wrong done to me by people who “I” feel should do things differently.
If you’re like me, pray, instead, for compassion. Yes, for a heart of trust in the Lord, and a willingness to submit, all things, circumstances and experiences to the Lord. As we do this, in obedience to Jesus, we can live fully and freely knowing that no person will ever keep us from God’s will, but our own stumbling about in the dark will certainly keep us from being able to see it.
More often than not our problem is not with “those people” it’s with “our heart.” The longer we mull over what they should have done or how they should have acted towards us, the longer will stumble about in the dark, delaying our journey towards the work of redemption God’s is accomplishing in our lives for His namesake.
Lord, forgive me. I am a sinner. I have been redeemed by your love, but sometimes, I walk around in the darkness. Forgive me for my foolishness and my stubborn heart. God thank you for all the people you have placed in my life. Thank you that they often reflect my desperate need for change. Lord, change me, I need your grace, in Jesus name, Amen.