Most Days I Struggle To Protect My Ego More Than Unity in The Church

In this temple and in Jerusalem, which I have chosen out of all the tribes of Israel, I will put my Name forever… (2 Ch 33:7).

My ego is something I love to protect. I think it’s because I feel like I often have something to prove. Especially if I’ve ever felt like I lacked respect from a person or a certain group of people or they didn’t appreciate me in some way. I want to come across competent, but if I could be quite honest, it’s because in the back of my mind I feel like I have something to prove to them.
Since I’ve already let the words of the enemy play in my mind on repeat that they think I’m incompetent it’s hard for me to practice humility. When a moment does arise where I need to practice humility I feel this certain need to protect myself. It’s hard for me to just be ok with not looking great in everyone’s eyes.
I know that I am God’s temple, but I quickly forget that when I am working hard to protect my ego. People who seek to protect their egos will always break down unity within the body of Christ. Because, quite simply, what’s more important to them is not what’s best for the body, but what makes them look the best.
Ouch, this has really been me. I have been so foolish to think of myself and what’s best for me instead of seeking to be humble before others that I don’ necessarily sense respect from. You can always tell when someone is trying to protect their ego because they can’t let go of their idea and they will rarely if ever admit they were wrong.
In order for us to shine God’s light into the world, we must be willing to lay down the idol of self. We cannot establish greater unity in the church when the only person of concern to us is ourselves. We’ll keep shining as individuals with little platforms and lots of protection, keeping others out so we don’t have to walk in humility. Yet, when we are willing to be humble and not be great in everyone’s eyes, submitting ourselves to God and to the unity of the church we can grow as His image bearers to the world. This is still something I’m learning, but something I very much want to practice more and more in my life.
Lord, forgive me. I just need your grace. I renounce all the lies Satan has tried to trap me with, in my heart. Thank you, God, for showering me with your love. I want to pour that out. Do that in me for your glory, in Jesus name, Amen.

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