he has heard my cry for mercy… (Psalm 28:6).
God is listening, trust me, He really is. I know it doesn’t always feel like it. I’ve been in those spots in life when I felt like He was far off, but I’m learning now that He speaks to me more often than I think.
The place He speaks to me the most is in my willingness to come before Him broken, desiring His grace and love to make me new. Now, I’m not saying I’ve got this thing all figured out. Truly, I am a major work in progress, but I have seen the hand of God in the places of my deepest brokenness. I have heard His voice the loudest when I have cried to Him for mercy, not in my anger, but in my desperation to be showered with HIs love and grace.
I have found the reason why so many of us do not hear from God is that we allow our hearts to grow hard towards Him because of the pain and difficulties of life. Therefore, instead of making decisions out of our wholeness in Christ, we make them out of our pain. We can almost be sure these decisions will be selfish as we prioritize protecting and soothing our pain instead of seeking a heart that is soft and tender to the Lord’s mercy.
Since we’ve convinced ourselves that our personal healing is impossible we insert ourselves by attempting to play the role of God in our lives instead. This always ends in disaster. Therefore, we must soften our hearts before the Lord as we cry to Him not in anger, or in our demands, but instead, for mercy.
Oh, Lord, forgive us for our lack of faith. We know we need your grace! Fill our hearts with your love! May our hearts be soft towards you! Thank you for speaking to your people. Lord Jesus, thank you for our love and grace for a redeemed sinner like me, in Jesus name, Amen.