“When I am afraid, I put my trust in you”….(Psalm 56:3)
I woke up this morning feeling discouraged. My heart was sad as I wrestled internally with what was going on inside of me. You see, God is challenging me to trust Him, but if I could be quite honest, trusting Him means releasing something that I desperately want from Him.
Can I just be really honest? That’s hard. It’s hard to let go when you’ve been through the wringer and back again, waiting, and waiting and waiting some more.
If I could be quite honest, I fear God’s no, because I do not know when and if He’ll ever say yes. This is painful, but I am learning, that whatever comes my way in life, whether yes or no, good or bad, there is a joy that I can have in the person of Jesus. Yes, a joy that comes only from His love that reaches down from Heaven into my discouraged heart.
I have felt, recently that there have been little places for me to land. You see, God has made me unique, just as He has you. This uniqueness sometimes makes me feel a bit like an outcast and like I don’t quite fit in, even in Christian circles. However, I have learned the joy of placing myself not in the trust of the company of men, but instead, of my heavenly Father. Yes, He is good to me. In His love, there is a place for me to land. Just as there is for you.
Sometimes, my heart feels like it’s being poured out like water before the Lord. Today is one of those mornings as I learn to place my whole self into the arms of my Father. If I place my trust in man, I will on all accounts be sorely disappointed. I am thankful though that I can reach into the bank account of my Heavenly Father’s love for me. Truly, this account never runs try as I seek His face.
Abba, daddy, you are so good to me. Your love, yes your love is enough. Whatever comes of today, I know that you are good and in you, I have a safe place to land. Thank you, Abba, that in your love I can find peace, in Jesus name, Amen.