“Pharaoh’s heart is unyielding”….. (Ex 7:14).
Has your heart ever been unyielding towards God? Mine has. In fact, just yesterday I sensed a strong desire within me to remain stubborn and unyielding towards the Spirit.
Quite frankly, the reason my heart was resisting yielding to the Lord was that I just wanted to be in control. I have noticed in my life that this type of control only causes division in relationships and distances me from people I love the most. Mostly, because when I try to control situations, I end up trying to control them.
God keeps sending Moses and Aaron to Pharaoh until he yields to God. The Lord will do this in our life. He’ll keep sending difficult circumstances, not because He’s mean, but because He’s trying to awaken our hearts to repentance. He’s trying to loosen our grip on the things we have loved and held onto too tightly out of our own fears. Yesterday, as I was doing an inventory of my heart I realized the driving force behind my thoughts and feelings was really just fear. I reached out to a friend to ask them to pray for me because I knew this attitude was not from the Lord.
In fact, if we could all be quite honest, we live in these places too. The place where our deepest fears are pressed and the Lord keeps taking us back until we choose to yield to His Spirit. I have found, at least for me, I hear this voice that says, “but if you don’t hang on, something bad might happen.” Yet, I have found when I let go and entrust my situations to God, although they don’t always turn out how I would want them they are always working for my growth in becoming more and more like Jesus.
Abba, I surrender my fears to you today. Thank you for taking me somewhere in my heart yesterday that was hard for me. Please forgive me for how I responded out of fear and impressed my own fears upon my husband. Lord, I want to be like you. I don’t want to be that old woman because I am a new woman in Christ. Fill me with your love, I pray, in Jesus name, Amen.