And when the centurion, who stood there in front of Jesus, saw how he died, he said, “Surely this man was the Son of God!”….(Mark 15:39).
All I ever want to know is that people see Jesus in me, especially during those painful, difficult times in life. I want them to say something similar to what the Centurion said of Jesus as he died. Something like, “Look how that woman died to herself, surely this woman follows Jesus.” Maybe you want others to see the same in you.
This is good, for truly, this is the call of every Christian. To learn how to die so that Christ might be seen in them. Yes, Christ, the hope of glory wants to take our messes and turn them into a message. However, the only way for this to happen is for us to learn how to die in the hands of a loving God who resurrects us from the grave.
I know that dying is painful. Trust me, I get that. I know it feels like your heart is being ripped out. I know it feels unfair, unjust and maybe even cruel, but it is so very purposeful.
You see, whenever our lives are put on display, the most beauty comes not when we are on the mountain top, but when we show part the world our dying selves. Yes, this is when the most beauty comes from our life because this is when people with real shattered hopes and dreams, just like us can relate as they watch us die in the hands of a loving God.
The greatest truth about Jesus I will ever speak is not in what my mouth says, but in how my heart responds. Yes, if I love to shout of His name, but neglect to praise and offer thanks when the storm hits I have proven myself a hypocrite. When I die slowly in the arms of God in the midst of great loss, the world can see that my heart, soul, and mind is abandoned to Jesus. As I abandon myself to Him, I am letting go of my need to be in control have all the answers and look good to others.
The more transparent I am about my life, the more people are drawn to the hope in me, through Christ. However, the more I hide my pain, the less of a message God can write for the world to see Christ in me. So, be encouraged today to let your deepest pains be the greatest part of your story for others to hear of the astounding and redeeming love of Christ.
Abba, papa, thank you for teaching me how to die. You take my deepest wounds and offer to heal, so please let my life be a testimony to your greatness. I’m so tired of living on the mountaintop so that my life looks good to other people. I want to live in the realness of the valley so that my soul can join with others who are living there too. Lord, use my life, I pray, in great ways that as I die, others might be drawn to you, in Jesus name, Amen.