Impatience….The Result of a Heart that Doesn’t Trust God

but his son by the free woman was born as the result of a divine promise…. (Galatians 4:23).

Just be patient, God is working. I know that’s easy for me to say and trust me, I have been the queen of impatience in my life. In fact, I’m fairly certain I’ve got the crown somewhere hidden in a box. Throughout my journey of impatience, I have learned, many, many hard life lessons. Some of those lessons, unfortunately, I had to learn more than once. Mostly because I was too stubborn to actually repent and fully embrace God’s will over my own.
Sin has a way of doing that though, doesn’t it? Catching us like a hook and keeping us captive. Instead of practicing patience and waiting upon the Lord we follow the deceptive words of deceit and take the bait. Whenever we take the bait it simply reveals an unsubmitted area of our lives. An area we have believed something wrong about the character of God and about ourselves. You see, if I trust myself more than God, oh boy….I’m in a heap of trouble.
If I place my own understanding on a higher plane than the King of Kings, well, lets just put it this way, I’m in for a rude awakening. I don’t say this because God is seeking to punish me. I say this because sin naturally leads towards consequences and any consequence I receive in my impatience is all on me. But, that’s such a humbling place to be, isn’t it? The place where I have to face my issues, own them and repent of them. It’s much easier to hide my failures, blame them on something else and press on.
One of the most healing things I can do for myself is to own my failures so that I can disown myself and find my true identity in Christ. It’s His character that I need, but I’ll never find it if I’m not willing to grow in humility. I’ll always find myself confident and capable without Him. Until I repent of my self-righteousness I’ll never experience the life-changing power of the gospel over my own self-sufficiency.
Be encouraged to wait upon the Lord. He knows what He’s doing and trust me, you don’t want to get into a situation like me where it’s almost like you’re challenging God to prove it to you. He’ll prove it and you’ll be left with a very humbled life and let me tell you, that is painful. Sometimes we get mad at God for screwing up our life, when in reality, we were the ones screwing it up all along through our self-sufficiency and need for control. Now that things have exploded, it’s really a question of will we repent and actually start trusting God?
Lord, it took me a really long time to get here, but I think I can say, “I trust you.” I trust you with my life, my future, my hopes, and my dreams. I release them all to you and thank you that you are working on my behalf, in Jesus name, Amen.

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