Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due,
when it is in your power to act….(Proverbs 3:27)
Yesterday I made a decision to be generous and if I could be quite honest, at first, it didn’t feel good. It felt uncomfortable and many questions ran through my heart and my mind as I wrestled with the Lord on the matter. You see, that’s normal when we go beyond what we’re comfortable doing. Whenever God takes calls us into deeper faith it always feels scary and uncertain.
Don’t think that just because you’re stepping out in faith that you’ll automatically be filled with greater confidence to continue moving forward. Fully expect to be met with fear, insecurity, and apprehension. That’s where the rubbing of God’s sharpening meets your stubborn heart as He starts to scrape away old patterns of thinking and doing.
It’s just sometimes I retreat when He gets to that part and think to myself, “Oh this must not be from the Lord because it feels hard and a bit uncertain.” Yet, this is where God’s grace will meet us if we are truly willing to walk forward in what He has prepared for us.
It’s not that we just let go and everything is perfect, no, it’s that we let go and God plants us in good soil so that we can grow. But you see, this first requires death on our part, a willingness to go with the Father to the grave so that He might plant us in His vineyard to produce fruit for His kingdom.
What I often have to remind myself, as I did yesterday is, “Heather, what does God’s word say? What do you know about His character and His heart? If this is in line with it then follow in it, even though it feels uncomfortable.” As I released those feelings of uncertainty to the Lord, eventually, after some time, my heart was flooded with the Lord’s grace, joy and confidence. Be reminded that God’s blessing awaits us when we are willing to walk in obedience, even when it feels uncertain.
Father, I trust you with my life. Truly, you are a good and mighty God. You see me and you love me. Thank you for growing me. I still have so much room to grow. May my heart be fully satisfied in your love, I pray, in Jesus name, Amen.