When My Insecurity Tries to Convince Me I Just Don’t Belong….

 Consequently, you are no longer foreigners and strangers, but fellow citizens with God’s people and also members of his household…(Eph 2:19).

Have you ever felt like you didn’t belong? Like maybe you were too different, too uncool or that you didn’t have things all together so there wasn’t a place for you? Yeah, I’ve felt that way too.
 
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Mainly because I’ve allowed shame to whisper something into my heart that just isn’t true. Although it is true that some people try to keep us away through their own controlling behaviors, it is more likely that we are keeping ourselves away because of something wrong we believe about ourselves.
 
In fact, just yesterday, my heart and mind were swimming with thoughts of, “if you don’t operate this way, you’re not going to fit in here, you won’t be wanted, so you need to conform to this standard.” Quite frankly, that standard was something that had been shaping in my mind overtime through fear and doubt. I was doubting my calling and my security in Christ. By leaning into fear, I allowed my thoughts to carry me away into a place of shame.
 
Shame is a prison, set up to keep us from our true freedom in Christ. It shackles us from truly being able to live in how God has made us. Once we let go of shame, we can finally start to live fully alive in the person of Jesus who lives inside of us. We can grow and become not who we believe others want us to be, but who God is shaping us into through Christ.
 
I wish I could say with full certainty, “I don’t care what people think of me!” But, honestly, I’m just not fully there yet. I hope to be someday, but in the meantime, I’ll keep clinging to the grace, truth and mercy of Christ to find freedom for my own soul.
 
Lord, I trust and believe that you are good. I know that I have a true treasure in you. I know that I have been made new by your love. I don’t have to fear or doubt. I can live free from shame. I can dance in your love that sings over me, in Jesus name, Amen.

9 thoughts on “When My Insecurity Tries to Convince Me I Just Don’t Belong….

  1. True enough! I have this feeling of being different in terms of my physical outlook. However, I believe that I am uniquely made that there is no replica of me in this world. We are all born unique and created for a purpose. Thank you for sharing this wonderful post. God bless you!

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