“Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord.” (1 Cor 1:31)
I like myself a lot and if I could be quite honest, sometimes I like myself too much. Especially when the thoughts I start to entertain about myself become puffed up and prideful. I have to be very careful not to feed my pride. Truly, those little thoughts over time can grow to become a fairly big problem in my heart and mind if I am not careful. Especially when the one taking center stage in my thoughts, is me.
In these moments, when I know my thoughts are becoming self-centered the remedy I have found through my repentance is imagining myself in the throne room of God. This imagery, very quickly, takes me off my self imposed pedestal as I picture myself before an almighty, powerful and majestic God. There, in His throne room, I fall before Him, recognizing that I am His servant, who truly has nothing to offer except that which He has done and is doing in me.
Until we learn to change the dialogue in our mind away from thoughts like, “I am awesome,” or “look what I did” or “people really think I’m something,” we will begin to ascribe ourselves way too much importance.
This past week I had been receiving some praise from people over something I had done and so I said to the Lord, “Father, I am thankful for the encouragement of your people, but I feel as though it’s starting to go to my head. Would you please silence people’s mouths, for a time, so that I don’t start thinking too highly of myself?” God honored that prayer and for that, I am thankful, because if I could be totally honest, what I want more than anything is to put Christ on display in my life. However, I know that my flesh really wants to think way too highly of myself and make things all about me.
Father, I crucify my pride and my flesh. I recognize that it’s only you in me who can truly do great and mighty work. It’s not about me, forgive me when I make it all about myself. Thank you for your gifts and for your love. Create in me a clean heart and renew a steadfast spirit in me, in Jesus’ name, Amen.