perfect love drives out fear…(1 John 4:18).
If love is the laying down of one’s life to serve someone else than fear must be the exact opposite of it.
I have watched my own heart and mind be captured by fear on countless occasions. This fear has kept me from being a servant, practicing humility or giving up my rights to value someone else above myself. Fear is always trying to protect me from something. Something unforeseen, something that happened in the past or something that I’m not willing to let go of. Fear truly is a liar and has kept me from truly loving people like Jesus would.
I’ve allowed fear to keep from praising the gifts of others. Thus, my pride has taken center stage because my fear encouraged it too. I’ve not led well, in those moments, because my heart was not captured by and being led by love.
For many years I believed that leadership meant I was the one who was leading and if I could be quite honest, letting someone else lead felt very threatening to my ego. I was unwilling to lay myself to make someone else look good because my fear told me that if I did, I’d lose the recognition I longed for in other people’s eyes.
Thankfully, through many humbling circumstances, the Lord taught me that the best leaders give up their need to be known, seen, and acknowledged before man. Just like Jesus, they live their lives not to make a show, but to be a servant, letting go of their ego to take up His humility, forbearance, and love. It is His love, being made perfect, in us that gives us the grace to love others in a way that our fear tries to convince us not to.
It is His love that calms and quiets the fears we’ve held onto for far too long. Truly, in Christ, we can walk, knowing that our position is not one of needing to be recognized before others, but instead one of being of little repute, so that others can be served, in Jesus name.
Lord, I want to be small so that others can be celebrated. I want my life to reflect your love unto the ends of the earth. Jesus, I want to be your servant. Shower me with grace. Help me to walk in faith, hope and love and not fear, insecurity and pride, I pray, in Jesus name, Amen.