Woe to the Assyrian, the rod of my anger,
in whose hand is the club of my wrath!… (Is 10:5).
Has your poor behavior, selfishness or bad decisions ever deeply hurt someone else? Mine has. I hate that, but it’s true and as I look back on my younger years I see it more often than I care to admit.
You may have heard this popular catchphrase recently, “You do you.” I think this phrase is so dangerous at its root. I can look back on all the times that “I did me” because it was what was best for me or its what I felt like doing or I just wasn’t really considering the other person and it deeply hurt them. Yeah, maybe you do you isn’t the best idea after all. Maybe that kind of thinking just perpetuates the problem that we all have to begin with- a deep struggle to not be selfish.
Now that I’ve walked many paths in my life that have ended in me hurting someone else I am more aware and willing to lay down myself so that I can finally stop hurting people. As the old adage goes, “hurt people, hurt people.” Therefore, I must be willing to do the hard work of emotional and spiritual healing in my life with Jesus if I’m ever going to get to a point in my life where I stop acting so terribly selfish.
I’ve seen this new river at work in my heart since coming to this realization a few years ago. It’s a flowing stream of God’s love filling me as it washes over my heart and mind I’ve seen it now become the river that feeds other people in my life with things like goodness, grace, and mercy. Although I’ve seen this growth, I must constantly be aware of the deep selfishness in my life that at any time could rear its ugly and take me captive once more down the paths of my past.
Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly in my weakness so that Christ’s power might rest upon me. You see, beloved, that’s what you need. You need His heart alive in you. Only then, when a river of God’s love is flowing freely through you can you shower others with the beautiful and overwhelming love of God. Thanks be to God that He redeems the messes of our lives and changes us into new and different people.
Father, I confess to you that I have a great need for more of your mercy. I am lost without your grace. I will always turn to serve myself, if not for your Holy Spirit at work in me. Abba, I surrender myself to you so that I might encourage and strengthen others through the grace that I have found in you, in Jesus name, Amen.