They will stumble over one another as though fleeing from the sword, even though no one is pursuing them… (Lev 26:37).
Have you ever had your button of insecurity stepped on by someone? The Lord is showing me just how often I allow others’ opinions, words and things left unsaid affect how I act, and respond to certain situations.
If someone says what I’m currently feeling insecure about, I’ll internally panic and think, “What I’ve thought about myself is TRUE!” I am a bad mom, daughter, employee, sibling, friend or whatever else I’ve allowed my fear and insecurity to try and make me believe.
When that comment by someone it’s like the dam of my life breaks and the waters of insecurity come rushing in.
All of this is because I’ve somehow, somewhere along the line misplaced my identity in things that I never should have found my worth in. If I hang my hat on my role as a mother, daughter, wife or friend, then when I feel like I’m failing in one of those areas, my whole identity will feel like it’s falling apart.
But you see, the one who trusts in the LORD is kept safe. Safe from the opinions of others. Safe from the fears of the enemy. Safe from an insecure life that hangs its hat on things that should never give us a sense of who we are as people.
When I look into the eyes of my daughter, I love her, not because she’s a good daughter or whatever else, but because she’s mine to cherish, to love and delight in.
You see when we start to see ourselves like this, as God’s beloved children, we begin to understand that the grace we need for today is really wrapped up in the grand story that our identity is found in being a child of God. This is my greatest purpose in life and when I rest in that reality no dam breaks, no waters of fear come rushing in and I’m not running after some misplaced identity because my heart is fully satisfied in being a child of God.
Abba, you are a good father. You love me, thank you for loving me. Thank you that my identity is simply found in being your child. Sometimes I forget that. Help me now to walk in your truth, in Jesus name, Amen.