they worshiped him; but some doubted…. (Matt 28:17).
Have you ever been praising God one moment but doubting Him greatly in the next? Yep, that’s been me too. In fact, I sense that dichotomy going on me in now. Doubt and discouragement have been knocking on the door of my heart.
I know what’s true about God and sometimes I forget that He is King and master over people and situations. It’s just that sometimes I doubt that He can work through people. Truth is, we cannot, nor should we ever put our faith in people. We can, however, rejoice that God works through people and that He works through our prayers and our willingness to trust HIm and walk in obedience.
Sometimes I must remember that my best prayer is not, “God change this person,” or “change this situation,” but, “Lord, give me the grace to submit myself fully to you and to trust in your unfailing love.” You see, this kind of prayer keeps us from hanging onto our expectations and our need to be in control. I’ve noticed that when I pray for God to change my situation what I’m really asking God to do is change things in the way that makes sense to me. I’m asking Him to work in my situation in a way that makes me comfortable.
Instead, I have learned to pray for the grace and courage to walk forward in faith, believing the best in every person and every situation for the glory of God. Trust me, I don’t always do this perfectly, but God offers me grace even in my doubt as I come to Him in repentance.
I feel like there’s a lot going on in my life right now that’s out of my control. Therefore, I am met often with thoughts of doubt or with waves of anxiety. My best place to be in this current state of my life is in a position of thankfulness. So today I’m thanking God for every good and perfect gift that has been sent from above. I’m thanking Him for His grace. I’m thanking Him that He is Lord over all. I’m thanking Him that if He has called me to something, He will see me through and He will make it beautiful.
Lord, I submit every worried and anxious thought to you. Please forgive me for my doubt. Honestly God, I desperately want to trust you, so please, be at work on my behalf. I need your grace to accomplish the task before me. Better yet, I need the grace to walk daily in obedience as a Christian, not in the waves of fear that sometimes try to steal my heart away. Lord Jesus, I surrender my heart to yours and I trust you, Amen.