I think it is right to refresh your memory as long as I live in the tent of this body, because I know that I will soon put it aside…(2 Peter 1:13–14).
I care, at times, way too much about my physical body. I’ll obsess about this part or that. Worry about how it appears to others and constantly attempt to fix, and change it to make myself feel better.
All of this is a trap set forth by the enemy to steal my joy and delight in Christ. In all honesty, it makes me anxious and puts my thoughts on unhealthy things instead of the freedom, joy, and purpose that I have in Christ. I’m not sure why I do this. I have nearly all of my life. This deep insecurity has burrowed itself into my heart and mind for many years and I have learned that the only way to keep it in check is to constantly bring it out into the light. To proclaim my freedom and newness in Christ and to replace the lies of the enemy with God’s truth about me.
I’ve also learned to no longer ask people to pray for things that I do, like my performance in ministry, this project that I’m working on or something else upcoming in my life. Instead, with those I trust, I ask them to pray for me as a person, who struggles to become more like Jesus. I need them to pray for my fight against sin. I need them to hold me accountable for pursuing the right thoughts and actions. I need them to lovingly call me out when I’m not. There is beauty in transparency. It not only disarms the enemy, but it connects us to others who struggle against sin too. It breaks down this false pretense that we somehow have life all together.
Much of our problem is that we keep trying to cover up and hide our true selves hoping that somehow, one day, through our own vain and unhealthy attempts to control our insecurities that we’ll feel better. But, beloved, you’ll never get there. You will never actually get to a point where you feel better if you keep trying to be in control of your insecurities. You must be willing to admit them, bring them out into the light and confess that controlling them only hurts you and others.
We must approach God with a spirit of thanks, knowing that as we let go, He meets us with more grace and freedom for our hearts and minds that can so quickly spiral into places of insecurity.
Lord, I confess before you that I am in daily need of your grace. I care too much about my physical body. I want to care more about the fruits of the spirit that lives inside of me. I want to cultivate a heart of love instead of a spirit of fear and insecurity. God, I place my whole self before you and I thank you that you have made me a warrior. You have made me new in Christ and because of that, I have victory in Jesus name, Amen.